Dating???? Careless Heart

What does it mean to date. I think me and my friends talk about this way too much. We all have different views on what it means to date. Some believe that you should date someone for months before your sleep in the same bed while some believe that they will lose interest if they do not sleep with them within a month. Should you date several people at the same time? This is a good question. I believe that if you seriously have interest in someone, you should not be dating more than that person. I think dating is hard enough to juggle around people. I can’t say that I haven’t dated more than one person because I have. When I do it, I do it because I don’t really have a great bit of interest of the people or because they aren’t showing a great deal of interest in me and it is what it, a date (a night out and about or in enjoying the company of another.). My friends say that I date as if I’m in a relationship. I’m starting to think that this is the wrong route to take. Why do certain things with someone. I swear the way I date leaves nothing for me to look forward to in the future. The buck stops here. Date it down dawl is back in effect, but in a new way.

who are u by Distant Lover

Wat defines you? If someone gives an explanation of you what will they say. Will they emphasise your flaws or your skin color? Matter of fact how do u define yourself...what do you see when u look in the mirror. If u walk in the room knowing ur the badest everyone will think likewise. So i leave u with this, who defines u...the answer should be u.

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A heart never changes. By Careless Heart

Tonight I spoke to an old friend. Don't get upset when I say this, but the best friend I've ever had. I decided to text them just to make sure all was well. Needless to say all was not well. When I heard this, everything turned back to what it used to be. This is one person that I would cross the ocean for just to give them a piece of gum if they wanted it. I didn't know what was wrong, but I knew I was willing to do anything to make it better. They said they would probably take me up on my offer to help. Ten minutes later, I got a call from them and my heart immediately dropped. I have not spoken to this person in months so there was a burst of excitement and concern all at the same time. When I found out that it was relationship problems, I was so relieved. I was worried that it was something a bit more than that. I went straight into friend mode and tried my best to talk them through it. It was pretty hard to hear words phrases like, "this is the only person I have like since you", but that was not my main concern; my main concern was to make sure that this person was alright, even if it meant their heart. I talked them through it, and we got off the phone. This is extremely weird for me because I just got to the point to where I decided that I would give a relationship a chance and stop focusing so much on what me and this friend had built and lived in the past. It's hard to date when you come from something so great, easy, and beautiful. Overall, I realize that this was the only person that I ever wanted to love. Do I still love them? Yes. Would I still love to be with them? Yes. Would I still do anything in the world for them? Yes. After asking myself all these questions, I had one more question to ask. If I was dating someone and this person decided that they wanted to come back in my life, would I drop the person I was dating? The answer would still be yes. With that being said, I not so sure if I'm ready to give love a try again.

Guess my heart isn't so careless, or at least this is the reason why it is.

Look through my eyes by Distant Lover

Help me see what everyone else sees, Help me see how I have changed

I look but I can’t see what everyone else says that see

Maybe if I squint my eyes or take off my glasses, I will get a glimpse of the “new me”

Is it the sadness they hear in my voice, or the sounds of my tears hitting the phone

They explain to me how I make them feel but I can’t imagine

I look deep in my soul to try and understand

But I get nothing

Is it the complaining, reading or the depressing thoughts I share

Ummm, I wonder if that’s why the phone is silent as I ask are you there

They’re getting fed up I hear it in their voice for they can’t take me anymore

The conversations seem like it may be the last

Were on the phone and I know they don’t want to be

From my best friends to my boyfriend they all seem to be fading away

I may not see what they see or feel how I make them feel

But I am asking, no I am begging, for someone to please look through my eyes

Goodbye Cold Day by Careless Heart

As winter time approaches, we all fight to get that heat that we all need. You know what heat I'm talking about. That heat that causes there to be so many August, September, and October babies. I have to say it's really said when you have that person that can provide that heat but they are so far away. What does one do? Do you go out and find another blanket. I don't think so, or do I? All I know is, the winters aren't getting colder, and the summers are getting a lot hotter. I say this to prove that you don't just need to work on getting that heat during the winter time, you may want to work on getting that person that will bring you that cold glass of water when you want it to cool you down.

Crossroads - Distant Lover

I stand at a standstill as my life moves quickly before my eyes

I am trying to take it all in, all of the blessings, all of the laughter , and even all the pain

I stand at this cross road and there is only 2 choices

Why…Why…Why cant there be an easier way

Why cant I just say okay and let that be good enough

I am sitting on the floor in a dark room, lauryn is playing, smoke fills the air and my reaction is slow as I sip this drink

I am trying to figure it out

I have let you back in my life, exposed my heart and now I am faced with a choice

HEART vs. MIND

Why must you fight, be one and come together so I can make the right choice

I remember when everything was so simple; it was a right and a wrong answer

Its either A or B, True or False, now its all fill in the blank

Some say follow your heart you only live once

Others say it’s the same as before be smart, doesn’t it look familiar

I stand at this crossroad and it is come to a point to make a decision

All I can do is hope, hope that the right choice will be made for I will have to live with it tomorrow

Goodbye crossroad for the time has come

Dirty Thirty by Careless Heart.

OK. So I don't know where to start. I'm turning thirty, yes I said thirty, and it's been a ride. Can someone tell me why I feel like after the moth of September my life is going to change drastically. I had a birthday party and it changed not only my life, but some fiends lives as well. Lets just say the police got involved and I'm ashamed that an event I had was the cause of some of the things that happened. I don't mind if something affects me, but when I'm to blame for others pain, it hurts me dearly. So I have to say to that person, I'm extremely sorry. If I could take that day back, I would completely. Not only that, I recently got in a car wreck. The devil is truly testing me. I know I said I would shut it down after September, but maybe it's meant for me to shut it down now. One of my good friends asked me if I wanted to go out of town with them this weekend. This is someone I have enjoyed hanging with a lot. Yes it is my birthday weekend and it's labor day as well. I love spending time with my friends, but I don't think I can handle all the partying. What to do? I have my trip to Miami coming up and then that it for me. Seriously. Though a lot of rough things have happened, I had the best surprise ever, My best friend came down at the last minute to make my special day even more enjoyable. It was such a great gift. I believe that time is the best gift you can give anyone. I have so much to write about but I think this is were I'm going to stop. Until next time.

Careless Heart